Saturday, June 27, 2009
Saturday, June 20, 2009
About a year and a half ago I put up a post that has done a lot of damage. I put up a post that claimed just the opposite. In fact, I made it seem like maybe a stripper was in love with me. I thought it was funny, but I never realized anyone coming across it would think I was an asshole, and worse, believe it. The truth is I hate strip clubs, I had always prided myself with never having gone, and I'm embarrassed that I ever did. I've always felt uncomfortable in those places. I thought I was being cool, but I wasn't being cool, I was being an asshole.
Friday, June 19, 2009
Whoa, I guess it's been a while. I never really knew how to approach this thing, back in the day, when I would write an entry from time to time. You're never really anonymous on the internets and I never quite got that. A joke here, something funny there, lots of embarrassing stuff. I'd gone through a lot of the old posts of mine and I didn't really like the person painted on those pages. With friends starting families and having children, the question that kept coming up in my head was, would I want my kids to see what I had written someday, would I be proud of what would inevitably be attached to me, and the answer was that for a lot of posts, no, I wouldn't. A lot of posts had me looking like a misogynist, sexist pig, and that's not who I am, that's not the image I want to project. I've had a lot of ups and downs the past several years, and spent a lot of time in a dark, scary place. I think I can finally see some light and I'm trying to have a better life, make better decisions, accomplish things. I'm not taking any drugs, I'm trying not to drink so damn much, I'm never going to strip clubs again, I'm actually working towards a degree and not just avoiding life. These are all positive things and as I climb out of this hole I'm trying to better appreciate the things I do have. I dunno, you fall, you get back up, you keep going.